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Why It Really Does All Go Back To Your Childhood

Have you ever heard a parent say “Oh please, he wont even remember this”? Nothing makes me cringe harder than hearing such a carefree attitude towards the tiny humans. Mothers who are in-tune instinctively know this is so not true, and now the science, both technological and social, is backing up what mindful parents have known all along. Neglect and emotional trauma will have big effects on baby and can permeate the rest of their life.

I don’t know why, but people are so hush-hush when it comes to neglectful or absent parents. “Oh, they’re doing the best they can, its not a big deal” In a time when mental illnesses and personality disorders are prevalent, drug abuse soaring despite cutting edge treatments, and rise in general loneliness and despair across the world, I think its time we stop sweeping this everyday abuse under the rug, or shaming adult-children for blaming their parents for how fucked up they are. I mean, it is their fault so why not just call a spade a spade?

Neglect and emotional trauma will actually make your babies brain smaller. Like, much much smaller than that of a well-loved baby. Less able to empathize, not just for lack emotional intelligence, but physically less able to do so. Also more likely to self-medicate with drugs, alcohol, food or sex or commit violent crimes. Leading neurologist, UCLA’s Allan Schore says the growth of babies brain literally depends on positive and loving interactions with (parents) as well as the development of cerebral circuits.  From the beginning of the third trimester to about 2 years of age, the brain literally doubles in size, but only if the baby has the “right” positive experiences, Schore says.

And more than that, the hormones generated between infant and caregiver affect the way genes are encoded. And its not just about pouring on the love. The more enriching experiences the little human gets, the smarter, bigger and more complex his brain will be. (Note; We’re not talking babies on vacation or out to fancy places, that’s actually stressful.  We’re talking bedtime stories or visiting the park on Sundays) So for a parent to say their lack of attention isn’t hurting the baby is in every way false. They may not be “doing” something, but a lack of attention is in fact doing harm.

Starting from day 1 and throughout childhood, you’re being programmed, mainly by your primary caregiver. Think of it like a computer program, they’re downloading a certain format and way of operating into your brain, and you’ll probably assume this is just how everyone thinks, reacts & feels. Lets use the simple baby-crying example. If a baby cries, and the mother responds lovingly, the baby is being programmed to know that when he needs his tribe, they’ll usually come and help him, especially when he really needs help. The baby is programmed to believe that there are loving people around to help. This belief becomes his way of operating.

If the parent doesn’t respond, the baby learns that people wont help him. These babies usually grow into adults who don’t help either, or do so resentfully. They may also be likely to use manipulation for gain, as they learned to manipulate a situation to get their needs met. This is the program they were downloaded with.

If the baby cries and a parent responds with anger, the baby has learned that they are a nuisance, unworthy of Love, thus their programming usually becomes one of “Asking for help is dangerous. Do not ask for help” It’s psychology 101.

So, the damage of negligent or abusive parenting (both physical retardation and faulty beliefs/programming) is done, now what? Well, you start healing yourself. Up until a few years ago allopathic Doctors would say that once the brain is formed there’s no turning back. Please, please don’t let this become your reality. Besides the fact that we are now finding this to be untrue, Our physical bodies are amazing at taking orders. But we need to remove the subconscious blocks that may be sabotaging, or the low vibrating energies that are distorting our energetic body. It does take effort. Its a journey.

One of the hardest jobs you may have on your healing and spiritual journey is de-programming. This is why Energy clearing (Emotion Code being the best technique I’ve come across) is vital. It finds trapped emotions and allows us to analyze our subconscious beliefs. And having a trusted counsellor or therapist is important during the process, as they can help to re-program with new beliefs. During the meditative portion, we allow our new intentions and beliefs to become our new subconscious program. Remember, our subconscious beliefs are the rudder to our boat, they lead us to abundance or lack, depending on what we believe. Spiritual work isn’t just good vibes and psychedelic experiences. What we’re supposed to be doing here is refining our spirits, and we cant do that using outdated thinking. First step is truly to clear. We can also muscle test the body to find out what it may need, physically speaking, to facilitate the process. It may tell us we need more magnesium, sleep or to lay off coffee for example. After some muscle testing, one of my healer-friends found he would really benefit from micro-dosing psilocybin mushrooms.  It was pretty funny as he’s never “experimented” and here he was, a mental health professional, dosing on mushrooms on the week-ends.  It’s different for everyone, which is why an experienced muscle tester is essential.  Muscle testing is our Spirits way of talking to us. And of coarse Reiki, which is the Source of Energy. Hospitals have done numerous studies on Reiki. One such hospital had two groups of patients who had surgery, one who got Reiki and the other did not. The patients who received Reiki healed %60 faster than the non-Reiki group. Its not a placebo effect, which I’ve covered in a past post, rather actual subtle healing energies.

So we are not doomed to a life of suffering because our parents didn’t do their job well. But if we want a better life, it is our job to do something about it. As a childhood abuse survivor, I specialize in clients with these backgrounds. I know how difficult it is to manifest with so many trapped emotions and limiting beliefs. I’ve been through the mental health system. I have thoroughly studied the effects of childhood abuse. And I have spent my entire adult life trying everything under the sun to heal, from Lithium and anti-psychotics, to meditation and crystals. This is what led me to Emotion Code and Reiki. And its not a long process either, a session or two often has life-changing effects, with very little effort compared to typical therapies and medical intervention. You just never know what seemingly magical things can happen when you remove trapped emotions and start truly believing your worthy of great things. This process feels good and is actually effective in big ways. You don’t have to know anything, just come in and let me get to work on you, you’ll be amazed at what we discover. I can help you get started to a new life full of abundance and love, whenever your ready.

Forgiveness After Betrayal ~ Should You Even Bother?

Before we get into it, I want to clarify what I mean by “betray” and “forgive”

There’s all kinds of poetic interpretations around forgiveness, many which don’t make any sense to my practical mind. Remember Oprah’s definition of forgiveness? “Forgiveness means giving up hope that things could be any different” Well that just sounds like acceptance to me. For sure, we should at some point come to a place of acceptance with all our grievances. But that doesn’t mean we should also forgive.

Dictionary definitions, yay:

“Betray: An act of deliberate disloyalty”

“Forgive: To stop feeling anger towards or about an offence

To cancel responsibility, to stop requiring repayment

The act of absolving (to set free) someone for having done something wrong

So basically, forgiveness is letting someone off the hook. and not everyone deserves that. For sure, find acceptance for what was, but this does not absolve a person of their actions or betrayals. The victim may still have to deal with the consequences, which can be minimal to life-changing. The offender may be likely to re-offend.

Forgiveness serves to keep people connected after betrayal, in whatever form. In essence, your letting them off the hook (where they were unable to betray again) and trusting them to act appropriately in future.

In our ancestors time, someone who quickly forgave others was seen a threat to the community or family, as undeserved forgiveness would cause eventual harm or damage, and put the family in a position to be exploited or harmed again. They were regarded as fools, or worse.

Now a-days, we hear people carry on like forgiving is an act of Saintly proportions, and a testament to how holy and mature one is. Deluding the self into believing forgiveness will make them an above-average good person, while simultaneously healing the pain of betrayal inside. Unfortunately, I’m afraid this is nothing more than generational gas-lighting and mind-fucking. You must forgive your father. Keep sweet. Always forgive and forget. Have faith, or whatever.

There are times when forgiveness is called for, and it is something we should aspire to in our relationships, but there are certain steps to getting there, requiring both parties effort.  You can accept it/them. But should you forgive them? There’s a path to forgiveness after betrayal. It looks like this:

The Betrayal ~ often an indication of a larger problem. Regardless, a betrayal takes place. Could be cheating, lying, a set-up, an act of negligence or disregard or general disrespect for ones things or self. Whatever it is, your feeling betrayed and have lost trust in the relationship

Outrage ~ From the victim This outrage serves the victim in calling out the betrayer and can help them gain support during this time of hurt and anger. It’s a pretty human reaction that helps us gain perspective and understanding. It also helps the victim during a time when they’ve been knocked down, to get up and brush off the pain of being hurt by a loved one. This is often the time when the victim finally fully recognizes that the actual betrayal as a sign of something bigger, a toxic or abusive relationship dynamic, for example.

Guilt ~ The offender feels Guilt. And they demonstrate this guilt through apologies, behaviours and genuine emotions and empathy. They do what they can to help fix the damage, or offer to help or do something. The offender shows they are truly remorseful so that they can be trusted in the future and welcomed back into the social group

Forgiveness ~ By the victim. When this happens the relationship can repair and the social connection is re-bonded

Notice step 3?  Yea, that’s the part that’s lacking in undeserved forgiveness. That is the determining factor in whether or not one should forgive. When someone says “I’m sorry!” they are simply telling you they’re sorry, and its probably true.  They probably are sorry because now the can’t have access to you or benefit from you.  This doesn’t mean they feel guilt over their act of betrayal, it does not mean they should be trusted. Many times the offender doesn’t feel guilt. Worse, they may even feel resentment towards you. They may feel shame. Guilt is about feeling bad for something you’ve done. Shame is feeling bad for being seen in a negative light. The offender may feel ashamed, but that doesn’t mean they care about how their actions affect others.

Forgiveness is important for healthy social connections and something we absolutely should strive for, but first we need to understand what it means. Many families and friends are simply too toxic or emotionally immature to do their part on the forgiveness path. This is when to hang them on a hook, safe away from our lives, and find acceptance for what is.

If you have trapped emotions of betrayal, resentment, or need help coming to a place of acceptance, Emotion Code and a session with a seasoned healer can help you. Trapped emotions lead to more of the same, and eventual physical manifestations as well, until we release the Karmic energy. Many people believe they just had to forgive a person and they would heal, only to find that it has caused more harm than help. Forgiveness is not necessary to heal, but acceptance & release is.

Emotional Neglect: A Quiet Abuse

Emotional Neglect is hard to articulate, and tricky to unravel. It’s a silent anguish that’s given no sympathy, for there are no bruises, no laws against it, no way for a child to protect them self against it, no commiserating for someone who cannot even explain whats wrong. If a blind person has never seen colours, could they explain what they’re missing? The same problem presents for unloved children, they often didn’t even realize what they were missing until they’re adults,…. if ever.

Love, nurturing and support, these are things we all need to be healthy. For children of emotionally neglectful parents, these are concepts only seen on TV. This isn’t how real people are, we tell ourselves. Then we grow up with anxiety, depression, a lack of security or confidence. We start to notice we don’t have the skills needed to succeed in life. We have a hard time with self-care and emotional regulation. With a trapped emotion of feeling unloved, we begin to manifest partners and friends who mirror our lack. Without a supportive kinship foundation, we manifest what we think we deserve, which isn’t much.

I remember when I was a child, I saw a mother pushing her son on the swing. With my own mother nowhere in sight, as usual, I thought there was something wrong with that kid. Is he disabled? Is his mother a weirdo or something? Why is she playing with her kid? I really thought it was weird. When I went home I told my mother about it, hoping she’d play with me too. Instead she called them “GayLords” It was typical in our home to make fun of functional families, when we weren’t making fun of each other, that is. I began to identify with this behaviour as well, calling people weak or lame, acting like I was proud of my tough up-bringing, and basically became hardened myself. I built a thick Heart-Wall.  Then I had my own children.

Here’s something I was never warned about when having my own kids: All your childhood trauma will become triggered when you are now the parent. I looked into my babies eyes and suddenly I knew what Love was. It wasn’t an easy decade. I spent my 20’s trying to understand why I was so damn sick. Post-partum with each child. Anxiety, fear, anger, self-harming, freaking out, an intense & irrational need to protect my kids. What should have been a beautiful time, was marred by emotional upheaval. And of coarse, eventual physical manifestations as well, I was always nursing an infection or virus. Therapist after therapist who couldn’t quite put their finger on it. No one ever said anything about neglect. Maybe it was a hormonal? Chemical imbalance? Self-esteem issues? Perhaps I had hidden memories?

Until I had my first Emotion Code session at 30, everything I did simply managed my distress. Nothing really healed me. Meditation calmed me, but it didn’t reveal any pointed subconscious pain. Reiki was wonderful, it increased my Ki, helped me feel Spirit, but it didn’t take away the trauma. Affirmations of self-love only went skin-deep, inside I still felt shaky. People who were neglected as children are notoriously slow to realize the source of the problem, as there’s no frame of reference for what a healthy attachment is. And denial is the coping mechanism used by abused children, hard to re-wire or break that pattern. The damage can also become biological. It literally changes your gene responses and neurotransmitters, so we’re often classified as chemically imbalanced or personality disordered. And what could we even do if we were to finally allow our self to realize? We inherently know that closure is futile, remember these people don’t actually care so good luck with that apology. Realizing that your parents will never be held accountable or feel remorse is a painful realization. They’re simply too self-centred to care, or too emotionally immature to understand anyways, and will probably end up belittling you or denying there was a problem, making the wound fresh again. The negative rhetoric inside our head traps us, and the guilt we’d feel bringing it up would be much to bear, after a lifetime of rejection.

Emotion Code unveiled my trapped emotional karma of feeling deeply unloved & abandoned (in my case, my mother kicked out or left each of her children by the time they were 15, however neglectful parents typically abandon their kids by this age even if they still live with them, they just completely stop being a parent) And there it was. Like a lightbulb went off in my head and I could finally understand why I was having issues, and all the appendages that went along with it (including the general neglect that typically occurs alongside emotional neglect ie no help getting into college, no help learning to drive, not being taught about how to treat a lady, not being taught life skills etc.) I was unprepared for life as an adult. We’ve been fed and clothed, but it takes so much more to be a successful human, doesn’t it?

Children need love, like they need food. It is nourishment for the soul. If you don’t give them enough food, their body will have a domino effect of health problems. The same goes when they don’t receive enough Love. It can lead to aggression, personality disorders, co-dependency, depression, anxiety, fear of asking for help, identity issues, harsh inner critic, shame, unworthiness, easily overwhelmed, sensitive to rejection, anxious or avoidant attachment, not feeling good enough, being okay with mistreatment and narcissist relationships and a general inability to unconditionally Love. Some people take issue with calling emotional neglect ‘abuse’, because it’s not intentional. As someone who’s lived it, I disagree. When a baby cries and the mom ignores him, that’s a choice.   When I begged my mom to stop going to bars every night, that was intentional. When a parent knows their teen is getting into trouble but turns a blind eye, that’s a choice.  When Dad decided to focus on his new girlfriend instead of his children, that was intentional.  When I needed help buying medicine for my ear and my dad made it so difficult I gave up asking him for help, he did that on purpose.  When a parent never asked how the child feels, that was intentional. When parents fail to take action on behalf of the child, that’s an intentional choice. When a kid wants to interact with a parent and the parent rejects them THAT IS INTENTIONAL. It IS intentional and they KNEW they were putting their wants before the child’s’ needs.

And it can take many forms, I wont get into too much, but it looks a little like this:

*Failing to notice or respond to a child’s emotional needs

*Using phrases like “It wasn’t that bad” “Ill give you something to cry about” “Too bad, we’re going” “Quit being drama” laughing at the child for crying or expressing how they feel, or other messages that let you know your feelings don’t matter.

*Meeting a child’s request for help with hostility or negativity.

*Not knowing whats going on in their child’s life. When I hear a parent say “I didn’t know!” I let them know “That’s even worse” There’s a reason your kid stopped telling you things. If you gave your kid the time of day, acted like you enjoyed their company and showed compassion or understanding, they’d know you care and tell you about their troubles. Instead, they’ve already learned not to bug you.

*Failure to give a child what they need to thrive in society. This includes homework help, social guidance, life-skills, structure, predictability and a calm home

*Emotional outbursts by the parent. Any parent who is in tune with their child’s emotional needs surely feels the fear in the child when a parent is out of control. Neglectful parents are often childish in that their feelings are the only ones that matter.

*A parentified child. Often one of the kids will become nurturing to the others. This is not okay and a sign that the parent is not meeting the needs of the children. No, little Sally doesn’t love being a helper, it’s an identity she took on so the home feels safe.

*Teasing or shaming the kids. Its never okay to humiliate your own kid. A parent is supposed to be the childs safe-person.  If you didn’t realize how much it hurt them, I can only assume they didn’t feel safe telling you.

*Being generally disconnected to the child’s life. Not putting them into clubs or giving them experiences. Not being involved in their school or events. Not knowing what they’re hopes or fears or likes and dislikes are.

*Using TV, electronics and even new toys to fulfill the child’s need for fun and emotionally enriching experiences. These things aren’t bad by them-self, but relying on them to keep your kid occupied is neglect.

Emotional neglect is often abuse by omission. The parent may say “Well, I never did this, or do that so consider yourself lucky! My parents used to beat me!” Physical abuse and emotional neglect are not synonymous. Your parents may have beat you, but they may have also been very invested in your future and didn’t know how to parent or motivate. Neither one is okay.

Of coarse, we as parents cant be there for our kids in every situation. Sometimes parents have hardships and need to put their own emotions as priority for a short time. Maybe there’s a new baby in the home and so we’ll rely on the IPad to keep little Johnny quiet until baby starts sleeping more. Maybe the parents get divorced and cant do any more than the minimum parent stuff while they get them self straightened out. Its also good for kids to learn resiliency. But this is different than childhood neglect. It’s temporary, situational, it is the exception not the norm.

Some fear that coddled kids are whats wrong with “kids these days” Think about the adults you know who are having a hard time in life. Were they spoiled? More likely they were neglected. (Perhaps confusing involved parenting with helicopter parenting or permissive parenting. Helicopter parents are controlling but invested.  Permissive parents are loving but don’t provide guidelines or enforce rules. Remember “Nanny 911”? Not great and different outcomes, but this isn’t “emotional neglect”)   The majority of people having relationship, self esteem or self-sufficiency issues are adults who were neglected as children.  Its a serious issue that causes a lot more pain & problems in life than overly-invested helicopter parents.

Involved parents teach their kids natural life consequences. Involved parents give their kids the tools needed to build resiliency. They guide, nurture and talk to their kids. Involved parents put time and energy into the kids. They use their brains and figure out remedies. They don’t just look away when the kids having a fit and hope they grow out of it. They don’t expect the school system to do a parents job. They are both loving and instructing, they praise and discipline. They help them develop their identity and show them what healthy love and fun is. They equip the child with a sense of self-esteem and worthiness. They are well rounded in their Love and Guidance. And remember, if you didn’t come from a good family, you can still make sure a good family comes from you. If you find yourself needing help achieving that, reach out for help. It’s there if you want it.

 

“Toxic parents and absent parents are one in the same.  Neither equips the child with the tools necessary to tackle adulthood.  This conversation is not to point a finger at our parents, who could also point the finger at their own

Truth be told, there are no best among the worst, there are only those who choose to do better.  Children inherit the work their parents didn’t do.

The last thing we need are excuses or deflection

Parenting is an elected occupation.  We may have had to suffer through our parents unpreparedness, but our children shouldn’t have to”                                                                    _Arah Iloabugichukwo

How To Take Control Of Your Life And Be Truly Resilient

Build your psychological resilience. Sorry, but there’s really no candy-assed answer for this one. It is a personal journey, and it doesn’t happen over night. Many were not given the opportunity to build their psychological resilience as children, and this leads to adults who have a victim mind-set. Helplessness drives everyone away except for enablers and predators. Stop waiting for people to rescue you, and start rescuing yourself. Here are the 5 main ways we accomplish this:

Work On Your Confidence

Not pretending, not being arrogant. It means learn to accept yourself for who you are. Maybe you don’t really know yourself. If that’s the case, I encourage you to begin the process of discovering your gifts and all the wonderful things that make you You. A session with a seasoned healer can help if you don’t know where to start. Be realistically optimistic, everyone has special gifts and magic. Everyone also has things they are not good at, be okay with this. Cultivate a belief in your ability to solve problems, which only happens if you try to solve your problems. I’ll bet when you do, you will amaze yourself with what you can accomplish.

Become Self-Aware

Make a conscious effort to be aware of where you’re at with your emotional mastery. Understand the faulty programming you may have received as a child, and challenge your beliefs and assumptions. Notice patterns in your life. Are you always stressed in the morning? Do you always pick hurtful friends or hang around people who are a bad influence? Do you tend to be defensive when there wasn’t truly a need? Notice the patterns and accept that they aren’t happening to you, but with you

Be Accountable

Accept full responsibility for your own life, including all decisions and actions. You may first need to humble thy self, which sounds scary to some, but is actually liberating. It is your job to build a healthy support system, which includes a balanced give-and-take. It is your job to manage your mental health and life. This means that if you have, say, anxiety, it is your job to find healing and manage it. It is your job to deal with the repercussions that come from any and all of your personal endeavors. This may include asking for help, but it doesn’t entitle you to it either. We all have our own crosses to bear, and those who take personal accountability for theirs become powerful in their own life.

Learn To Adapt

Sometimes we must deal with situations that are uncomfortable. Sometimes things change. Managing unexpected detours should be expected in this reality. Be like the Willow tree and bend instead of breaking, while remaining open to opportunities for growth, learning and eventual peace and happiness

Find A Purpose

A purpose earns us a sense of strength and self-esteem. A purpose can be anything, its best to leave ego out of this one. Being consciously kind to animals is a purpose. Helping your family thrive is a purpose. Being an example of a Divine Masculine is a purpose. Becoming a dentist who volunteers in the prisons is a purpose. Whatever purpose you feel in your heart will develop your personal resilience and is most definitely part of your mission in this life. Again, if you are having trouble finding your purpose, a healer or life coach can help.

Can A Psychic Predict Your Future?

Often times my clients or friends will ask me to make predictions. In my experience, wanting predictions signifies a person who lacks accountability in their life or doesn’t understand their role in creation. Yea, that sounds pretty harsh, but at the root, it’s a misguided belief that their life is somehow at the mercy of others, forgetting their great responsibility to co-create the reality we share. We have Free Will, and every action and choice we make has an effect on all possible outcomes. (Okay, side note, many people have unknowingly or in defeated manner given away their Free Will which is a topic for another day) Long term predictions are often little more than guesses, which unfortunately creates beliefs and eventual outcomes in many cases. Psychic Intuition deals with the here and now, it cant fathom what will occur several incidents and choices down the road. We have Free Will. This means we are co-creating collectively. And this is a big part of our human journey, learning to create and love. It is why we must be conscious of the choices we make. We cant blame God for the results of our own actions. This is collectively our “project”, and if we fuck it up, that’s on us. Not to get too out there, but when we look at the messages from ascended masters or channelled spirits, even visitations from other beings, we are always urged to make better choices, that Gaia is in crisis mode and that for the sake of the Universe and our own ascension, we need to figure this out already. Intelligent guesses of possible outcomes are hardly psychic awareness. I know that if I keep throwing garbage into my pond, eventually all the fish will die and it will become polluted. I know that if I’m dating someone who isn’t treating me right, it’ll likely end badly. Most people can easily see what you don’t want to see, and this is the crux of the unethical psychic community. Instead of Intuitives empowering people with knowledge and insights, they sell a prophecy and god-like image. Even the great oracles of the past have barely gotten half their predictions on point, and most of them are vague enough to be applied to almost anything. I’ve seriously lost track of how many times people have shared with me predictions a psychic has sold them, only to leave them confused and desperate. I take these people and re-instill a sense of confidence and control, armed with knowledge and insight. We have a responsibility to create a better world, to create our own reality, and quite frankly that Truth is not easily sold. But if you realized how awesome this power and responsibility is, you’ll see you can create for yourself, an abundant life.

So, can an Intuitive read currant energies? Absolutely. I can effectively tap into created or currant reality. Can I determine what choices and subsequent results will occur after you leave my office? No, that’s your Free Will and the consequences of it. I may receive visions of what could be possible, but this doesn’t mean you’ll choose or take the steps to make it happen.

When we tap into someones path, say with tarot cards, whats happening here is the message is connected to you’re own subconscious beliefs, we simply reveal it. When I read cards for myself, I cant help but notice the message is what I was already believing. If I believe someone will come back, the cards show them coming back. A week later when I think they wont, the cards show they wont. The messages are spooky accurate, but they also change with my own beliefs. If you believe someone is your “twin flame”, the cards will agree. If you believe you’re in danger, the cards will agree. If you believe there’s $ on its way…. you get the idea.

As a healer, I prefer to help you tune into your inner wisdom and power, quit being desperate for answers and instead provide insights. Your intuition does want to help you, but its a one step at a time thing, as that is all we can be aware of.

One lady came in for Reiki, and started asking me questions about a toxic relationship she had. A psychic told her this man was her “twin flame runner” confirming what she already suspected. She then wanted to know when he was coming back. Its hard to watch people throw their power away like this. I explained to her what I saw, that he wasn’t respecting her or interested in being with her at this time. That the message was clear, this is whats happening now so act accordingly – take care of yourself because this jerk has you all frazzled and he has no intention of changing anytime soon. I could also see she had a lack of self respect and that’s why she is with people who don’t respect her, something she created. The advice was for her to do the self work and begin a daily meditation routine so she could DECIDE for herself if this was a worthwhile prize to chase. Well that sounds a lot less fun than what the psychic told her, so she left without listening. That’s fine, if you just want fun and games go back to the psychic and see where that gets you. When you’re ready to actually heal and create a good life, I’ll be here with open arms. Not to bring up the obvious, but if psychics could honestly predict future outcomes they’d all be stinkin’ rich and opportunistically benefiting from all sorts of things.

So, the next time you go to a psychic healer be sure to remember that it is essentially YOU who will determine your outcome, success and losses. Energy is fluid and it can change from day to day. It is YOU who is creating your future alongside the collective. This world, and our very own lives, is ours for the making, and every choice we make will impact the future in a way no human mind is able to predict, in a way that no outside entity is able to control. This is OUR world. The future is created 1 step at a time and its a power that is in our hands. That is empowerment – recognizing your role in the future.

Are We Attracting Or Seeking?

There is a popular notion among the New Age community that we “attract” events and things to us. The insinuation is that we are somehow powerful enough to essentially control other beings and the Universe at large. While we do influence the world around us, we certainly do not have the means, or right quite frankly, to make decisions for or have that kind of power over other sentient beings. It is, after all, a collective consciousness. We do have power over ourselves, and it is our self that we are affecting when we manifest. We control our own path. Our own vibration, choices and actions will effect others, again, a collective outcome. But when we have manifested results or things, it is because we have altered our own energy and path. This is how it works:

Our subconscious (or our Akashic record) is where all our thoughts begin. It’s a record of everything you have ever experienced and even though you may not remember or be aware of all the activity going on back there, it is what’s influencing your conscious thoughts and choices. Your reasoning in any given situation is highly influenced by the subconscious record of experiences. Many of our manifestation techniques are actually working to change our subconscious beliefs. For example, affirmations. Affirmations are repeated continuously until the subconscious belief is, in some cases overridden. However, this is tricky to do if there are trapped emotions (aka Karma) that need to be cleared, thus in many cases the affirmation doesn’t have substantial effect. Our trapped emotions heavily influence our subconscious, which seeks to resolve the Karma (If it is simply a matter of faulty programming then affirmations work beautifully!) Once the trapped emotion is cleared, the lesson or understanding is complete. We have now changed OUR belief system. What happens next? Well, we are now open to new possibilities, we are now subconsciously and intuitively seeking what we want without blocks or restriction. It’s not that we changed everyone else, we changed our own self and thus the path and choices we make. It’s why, after years of being bad relationships, we’re suddenly attracted to healthy partners instead of unavailable people. We didn’t force a good person into our life, they were out there all along. We simply now allow our self to see, choose and be attracted to healthy partners. We didn’t pull it towards our self, we are now seeking it. If our heart chakra is blocked with a heart wall, its not that clearing the low vibrations is somehow forcing good people onto our path, we are simply now open to receive Love, which was out there all along, waiting to be discovered.

When we do energy clearing, specifically emotion code (which allows us to actually understand the energies/emotions and time it occurred so it can be cleared) we are clearing the blocks that are blinding or steering us away from what we want.

The subconscious is like the rudder of the boat. It leads us to where we need to go. The fish were out there all along, we didn’t force them to our fishing line, we simply corrected our course to where the fish just are.

When doing energy clearing, we discover the block and clear it. This changes OUR intentions and path, not everyone else.

We are spiritual beings having a human experience to help us evolve. If we have a trapped emotion (karma) then we will continue to seek experiences that help us to understand and learn. Once the karmic lesson is solved, we are now free to move on to bigger and better things!

Everyone Can Manage Their Anxiety

I like to consider myself a bit of an expert when it comes to anxiety because I’ve lived with it my whole life.  Of all the low-vibrating emotions, anxiety is my go-to.  And much like the best addiction counselors are ex-drug users, I am an ex-anxious person who has some real-life solutions for dealing with anxiety, reducing its severity, and understanding it in a way that many others cannot.  It is exhausting and often paralyzing.  It keeps us stuck, it lies to us, emphasizes the things we don’t like about our self, it makes us irritable,… and it usually starts in childhood.   This revelation is sometimes met with confusion, many clients stating they didn’t start feeling it until early adulthood, however the programming and past experiences are often the root of the relentlessness.  Easy answer, I know, but by tapping into our subconscious and dissecting messages and lifelong habits, we can find the root cause.  And it doesn’t take months or even years in my space, as it does in traditional therapy.  Its just a matter of being in the right mindset and tapping in.  These revelations are Step One to soothing anxiety.   I am human and so it would be delusional and dishonest to say I don’t still have my days.  Like I said, anxiety is my go-to emotion when things aren’t “perfect”, so I’ve become quite good at managing my anxiety.  Here are some of the ways I manage my anxiety on a day-to-day basis:

1)Get To Know Your Triggers  It can be really hard to believe that you’re going down the anxiety hill until its too late sometimes.   Anxiety makes small things feel really big.  Anxiety can start slow like a frog in boiling water.  Anxiety can tell us we are worthy of punishment and negative self-talk.  Become mindful of the who/what/where/when/ and how’s.  In other words, is there a person that triggers anxiety in you, which then grows for days?   Sometimes the anxiety takes a bit to build.   Is there a place that makes you feel irritable or grumpy whenever you’re there, that is possibly a side-effect of anxiety?  Is there a part of your anti-self that you need to work on?  Ask a trusted loved one if they have spotted any triggers in you, and be willing to think about their answers for a few days.   Understand your triggers so that you can manage them.

2)Eat A Nutritious Diet    This is just so important.  The mind-body connection is real my friends.  I could reference a thousand studies showing the link between mental health and diet, but a simple Google search is already at your fingertips;)  Check it out.  I have noticed huge declines in my mental health when eating  poorly, it’s a consistent trigger for me.   If your body doesn’t have the tools it needs to be healthy, you will feel it mentally.

 3)Limit Social Media        Again, both personal experience, and scientific studies show that social media is bad for mental health.   Sure, we all know its bad to compare, that it’s all illusion, that it messes with our brainwaves and emotional responses, but it does more than just that.  It enforces a habit of looking outside of the self for validation. It causes constant spikes in adrenaline.  Its addicting.  Truly time yourself and see how much mental space you give to these illusions daily.   Its rarely based off any kind of reality, this is stressful to the cognitive mind, and no matter how mindful you are, we all get sucked into that illusion after too much time on.  People who uses social media even moderately have been shown to spend significantly less time doing the daily chores that often bring our mind into a meditative and grounded state.   Less time cooking, cuddling, walking the dog, dusting, painting our nails or building that shelf.  Less time in our own little world.  After going down to only 1 social media platform(which I keep deactivated half the time as well now) I have noticed a big difference in my self-esteem and satisfaction of daily life.

4)Give Up Coffee!   I’m sure now you hate me!  But it had to be said.   I started drinking coffee after my second child.   Drank it for years.   Not even a lot, just a cup or two a day.  I already had my anxiety pretty well managed a few years ago, but there was always this underlying panic feeling I couldn’t put my finger on.  One day a friend, who almost never drinks the stuff, decided to enjoy a coffee her co worker brought her after a long few days.  He also brought her one the next day, which sparked anxiety in her, a feeling shes not accustomed to.  She immediately recognized the energy as one she witnessed in me, and had me over the next day to talk to me about it.  She encouraged me to try going without for a month and it has honestly changed my life.  So I researched the subject, and although there are studies talking about possible benefits, ultimately I discovered that the way it changes and effects the brain is scary.   It is a narcotic.  It was introduced to make people work harder, while thinking less intuitively (my intuition is consistent and always available now, whereas before I had to do quite a bit of prep to get there)   Caffeine is literally a natural pesticide, killing cells it comes into contact with.    MRI images show a decrease in blood flow to the brain by as much as 45% after having a coffee (http;//abcn.ws/2ipmLj7)   Coffee causes degradation of the brain.  Coffee gives us energy by putting us into a fight or flight state of mind, which triggers the lower IQ centers of our brain, meaning our higher learning parts of the brain are suppressed.   Coffee is proven to cause or contribute to several diseases, dysfunctions and defects, mental and physical.   It creates significant & measurable sleep disturbances for WEEKS after just 1 cup.   The list of harm coffee does goes on and on, but the point here today is that coffee is really bad for anxiety.

5)Create A Schedule    This may be more useful to some than others, but typically speaking those prone to anxiety don’t like unexpected situations, and tend to feel more comfortable when on a schedule.   A daily schedule with some wiggle room can take a lot of mental strain off, and help make the unexpected more manageable.  If you stress about something specific, such as work, know this as a trigger and re-train yourself using a schedule as well.  Get all your work things ready at a specific time (for me it’s the morning of the day before, as that’s when I start worrying about work) and I remind myself that its not time to worry about work yet, that I will worry about work on the day I work, and that everything is already ready now.  This allows me to go the day without worrying about it, everything’s ready and I have nothing to mentally “go over”  When you know a specific time of the week gives you anxiety, you’ve recognized a trigger and can now re-program yourself using a schedule and soothing self talk

6)Nature, Get out There   Sometimes the simplest solutions are the ones we don’t do.   It’s like we feel things must be difficult to be effective.  There is something magically harmonizing and soothing to the Soul that I just don’t have the ability to intellectualize when it comes to the healing power of Nature.  Find a favorite trail, tree or park, and just get out there.  Like, often.  Make it part of your schedule.   Spend some of that time you used to on social media and replace it with Nature.

These are my every day, anyone-can-do-it, no professional help needed tools anyone can use to manage their anxiety.  In my practice I do teach people how to meditate,  re-parent programming and positive self-talk, setting goals and managing the anti-self to further the healing, but these are really the foundation.  If you don’t put effort into managing your anxiety, then don’t expect improvement.  These tips aren’t painful or hard, they just require you to try.  I’m not shy in  my belief that those who heed the call of anxiety, who listen to it and understand it, who make honest effort to manage it, always find healing.  And those who make excuses or say “That wouldn’t work because” or ‘I cant just do that” will remain in the struggle.    Everyone can manage their anxiety.